I Still Like Him

u are ridiculously cute, handsome, charming and special. idk... all i know is u put ur spell on me, till i can't get to like any other guys. i mean, hey... i'm trying to have a crush on other guy too. i'm checking them out. lol. actually i'm not. i don't have time, i've been so busy, and now.. in a few hours, i got my mid term, commercial food preparation, which is not an easy paper. not expecting much. i just hope that my basic knowledge can give me some ideas, because i have no heart to read extra notes. seriously... ugh..

i actually made a move, i mean, i always stressed out whenever his name appears on my facebook sidebar, like everytime. no matter how many times i refresh it, i don't get the meaning, but seriously facebook stress me out. so i blocked him at first, but then, i felt guilty, so i unblocked... and there u go, he is automatically not a friend of mine on facebook. i was like, oh ok.. no need to add him back. haha. because this is my first to block someone on facebook, and why is he the become the first person for me to block? i know the reason, because he hurt me so much. that i can't even forgive him. ok... i'm lying. i guess i will if he ever come bac again and start to talk to me... again. only if... i don't expect much, i hope he is doing well with his own life. and i'm doing just fine, without u... i am so happy that u are not living in the same college as me. if u do... then idk what will happen to me.

i am actually bored. been stayed up all night, watching simon & martina videos... 4minute performances.. dance cover and so... u know what... i like this one back up dancer of 4minute, the one that dance with jihyun in their volume up music video. so i google bout him, and his name is im jae yong. i really hope he will debut one day, then i'll be one of his fan. he will be popular, as he is only a backup dancer, i'm not looking down to him. what i'm trying to say is, he'll be very popular kpop idol, if he really debut. he is handsome, hot, tall, dance is good too. ofcourse, he is a dancer btw. i want more of his picture. u know i've been digging out all 4minute's volume up performance just to see his face. hmm... he is a backup dancer for troublemaker & cry cry too. i'm not sure about hyuna's ice cream, but the guy really resembles him. some said they are both different person. but... yeah... idk. and i don't really care.

i bought lipstick & some masks, from The Face Shop.

and our school dinner is in the corner, like seriouly... they announce it way too late!!!!!! it is on the next friday. i don't know what to wear. the theme is Hollywood Walk of Fame. i don't have heels for that too. oh gosh... i wanted to go, but idk what should i wear. like the most proper attire i have is my last 4 years of baju kurung, and i don't have it here. suggest me some. i'm wearing veil. u guys know it right? help me. i've been googling the most easy-to-get attire to fit the theme. but... ugh... idk. 

and... yeah, i still like him. and it hurts me. i do hope i can like someone else. i do hope that i'm like the other girl who can attract guy. i mean, some of them get guys attention way too much, i don't understand why i don't. is it because of my attitude or what? i afraid it was because of my bad attitude. seriously. 

but DINNERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! help me!!!!!!!!!!!