i guess, i don't know what i want to say. i've got a lot in my mind, thinking about this and that, everything. sometimes blaming myself... felt insecure. alone, lonely... after all, i miss my hometown. semporna, my uni life, kk and etc... i miss sabah very much. when i'm all alone, i can look up to the sky... that way i can feel more calm, and happy. no insecurities. i just can't do it here. i hate to be here. all i can see is building, and that makes me feel sick. i love sky. very much... and yet.. is it right for me to stop myself from liking someone? i don't want to think about it, but yet, my heart can't sync with my mind. what should i do with that?