BE FREE

i do think i'm not fully updated to all new songs released. i can't never catch up with this kind of internet speed. it is just slow... too slow! previous, i had a very good connections of internet in my college. but have no time to update and no chance to do sharpen photoshop skills. but now. have time, but not in internet cases. lol. how ironic. whatever. i dont really care, i need to get used to this, because i am soon to be a very busy woman. lol. am i? wait and see. i don't even know my own fate... only Allah knows! oppsss! i gone too far, back to the topic (as stated in this entry title). in my own current-kpop-song dictionary, these are d songs: Diamond by SNSD (it is in english, still kpop right? i guess.. XD) We were In Lov e by T-ara ft Davichi  Stranger by Babysoul  Lovey Dovey by T-ara My My by Apink I Knew It by B2ST  The Grasshopper Song by Sunny Hill  Diamond by SNSD  She is a Flirt by Babysoul ft Jia Dangerous by X5  ...

i am obviously overweight and wanted to lose some of my lovely fat in my body. what? i'm not loving myself? u r totally wrong... the reason for me to go on dieting, is because i am totally in love aka really really really in love with myself so that i go on dieting. because... d existence fats in my body is really troublesome. there are a lot a lot of consequence of have spare tires on ur tummy and thigh or even ur butt! i dislikes the feeling. more over... i just read half of a book named " Kenapa Rasulullah Tidak Pernah Sakit. " in english " Why Prophet Never Feel Sick/Hospital " and... i am totally in shock, coz i never knew that my Prophet, our Prophet eating lifestyle. i never knew that Rasulullah always eat vegetables and less meat. while me... eating a lot of meat, chicken especially, because i have a really narrowed fave vegetables. i don't really consume vegetable. i hate how our malaysian restauranteur cooks vegetable. they make vegetable taste b...

i just finish the first series of code blue. what? late? i am... but it is better than not watching any right. hahahaha.. and i just finish flower boy ramyun shop. INTERN! lol. talking bout this, i am soon on my internship too... soon to be an intern. soon to meet my beloved one. hahaha... that's the point though... it's been a while since i ever meet him. more than 3 years. omg, how? i dont even know how come we can maintain this relationship. but i HOLLAND (hope our love last and never die) something i learn from malay's drama. i don't even know where did they learn bout that. i'm just taking anything that is good ngeee... somehow i would like to change the hope to pray ... because all we can do about things like that is pray. ok. enough blabbering bout that. i would to share something that i think for quite a long time... call me crazy or idiot for thinking about things like this... but do u found that these 3 guys are looks alike? man in the maroon or maybe p...

Salam all... i'm on my holiday. 5 weeks of holiday before i start my internship. and.. yes, i am now at my home. in the most comfort state. no exercise. sleep early. wakeup like usual. lol. cook? sometimes i do. sometimes i don't. i cook when i want, because i want to eat my mom's cooks. hahaha... and.. there is something wrong with my title. yes it is. for all this time. i mean, before i'm in my 5th semester (which just past). i am always happy when my stomach is full, filled with heavenly delicious-yummy-tempting food. but, during my 5th semester, i really cut a lot of my food supply. i eat less, and i eat things i need because i really need to save my budget, i am out of money during that time. i rarely felt full. and i swear to Allah, that is the most comfortable state i have in my life. and now... since i am home, everything is prepared, delicious, tempting, yummmm.... and bla bla bla. so i ate more than usual, and i am full! yes it is a good thing for me to ea...

I seriously hoping that i can remove all the pictures of him in my head. it is seriously tiring. it seems like, u r on one side love. i claim that we are couple. hoho~ for more than 3 years. i understand he is busy. but... still... is it hard to text me, asking how am i? u dont even remember me before u sleep? while u r resting? are u surrounded by thousands of works? or problems? is it related to ur study? in this early semester? really? busy studying in ur early semester. and u mad at me when i asked u is it true that u r not avoiding me? i understand that u can't see, i understand ur situation. i even tried to relieve all the worries raised from ur ignorance. i tried to let forget it. i act like i don't care whenever u ask me if i am ok, i tried to cheer myself up.. however, it is still me the one who makan hati with ur ignorance. u will not understand, about how i feel. ever! even if i explain it to u. even u said that u understood... u know that is ur fault. but... u do ...

first of all... aku akan menempuh final exam.. bukan menempuh la.. merempuh! haha. biar hancur! pastu cuti dalam 5 minggu then aku fly pg semenanjung, praktikal sana~~ d klia... huh! bukan jdi attendance k.. tp bertanggungjawab untuk penyediaan makanan syarikat sajibumi. sedia berbakti. sekian! pastu sambung bawah... new year tahun ni.. boleh dikatakan langsung ndak best! final exam.. huhu.. aku paling benci dengan exam. ndak best... pastu hati sakit. makan hati sorang2. tu jak pun. actually exam takda la mempengaruhi ketidakseronokan tahun baru... i call this new year is unfriendly because he is so unfriendly with me. no text from him, except when i ask him how is he.. ok or not... bukan sehari mcm tu.. berhari2 apek tu buat aku mcm ni. why does man can handle their feeling hu? kalau aku, sehari ndak dapat contact... macam2 benda yg negatif bermain di kepala... aish... padahal dia selalu pesan la kan supaya bersangka baik. tp kalau dah sehari tiada khabar tu macam mana la?...