Health is more important

i was actually holding myself from posting anything related to oyaji. if i don't, idk how much post do i have for today. and now i'm not going to let this distract me, more like ruined my life. i wanted to be happy. i just want to ignore what i felt about him and ignore things that can make me hate him. he once said "why hate when we can move on" he is true. well he said a lot of things that motivate me. i don't even know how to tell u guys one by one. but, yeah.. life doesn't stop at one point, it'll keep better if u experienced more or so... pretty much it's a lesson. he said... and i was thinking what happen now is also a lesson for me. that is what we call life. enough bout that

i was on facebook, and i see this link shared/liked by my friend, it is about 4 new body shapes and types, so i clicked on it. as a person who major in food, i should know about this... at least. but it is more like to let me aware of things that is relate to health. i was so desperate to keep my health at the optimum level, but idk, my campus lifestyle won't allow it. i mean, with all classes, assignments, laboratories and tutorial, my time on blog and twitter too. it makes me hard to have a proper rest time, proper meal, proper exercises and so. but so far, i never been in a serious health problem, other than period pain. lol.

so i read body types, and apparently, what they have on that site is what i need. like tips of losing weight, the myth on dieting and so on. do u guys know that i was once with 45 kg of weight (when i was 18/19 yo)? and now i'm 58 kg (i am now 22 yo). i gained more than 10 kg. it is not that i'm obsess to appear lean, skinny or what. but, at least let me live with normal bmi. i almost obes u know. now i'm still in the overweight category. huhuhu... my height is not even reach 5 ft, my height is only 4'8 ft. i am the kid among my friend, yet with "large" size, hihihi...

the one with purple baju kurung, white tudung and  light green file is me, i was 18 during this time, and was 45kg.  

light yellow t-shirt & white tudung is me, last year... and i was 60kg during that time. i looks retard here. lol.

the one in grey is me, my uniform. and i was 55kg during this time. so chubby.. =_='

and now i want my 45 kg back.... work out! but i'm not going to cut my food. i do love food, but foods provide by cafe is just... ugh... i cook better than them. so when i'm in campus, i automatically eat less than normal... the food wasn't that good, and yet the price was soooooo... extraordinary expensive. so i have no choice, this lifestyle already help me cut my food. hahaha... i'll tell u guys if i loss weight. well tbh, i loss some, while i'm on my internship, my weight reach 55 kg, and i was so happy at the moment, but then... i gained some back, until now. it's ok fiffy. never give up. actually when i think about this, i can forget oyaji. really! well then, see u later. i'm going to talk a walk around my campus tomorrow morning, and might come back with some photos

don't u glad that i don't post about him? i sometimes annoyed with my own post, because i hate to be seen as a weak woman. huhu. it's ok. let's live happily. whatever happens, happens. everything happens for a reason... and God knows our limitation, so He will never give us test that is beyond our own limitations. till now...