guys i don't think i can wait till tomorrow to post about this. i was planning to hold it, more over i don't want to do any assumptions, because it is too weak. but i don't know, my heart is about to burst. i'm not even kidding. i seriously think that guy i like, u guys know who is he... i don't want to mention his name. he is egoistic! ok, i don't know why i say this. but seriously, he do. i think? lol.
i'm ok with his name keep appearing on my facebook sidebar, like on the chat list, suggestion pages for me to like and so... even on my own profile, each time i view my own profile, his name will be in the featured friends of mine, leading me to open his profile. i view his profile everyday though... haha.. i always view, but rarely likes, and no comments drop. as long as i know he is doing well i'm ok... he cooks for his housemate ok, and i super like it. guys can cook is super hot!
hahaha... ok..
i said that i rarely like his activity right? and there is one time, i view his page again, the picture he takes so pretty, and he make it as his cover photo. i liked it, after several time viewing his profile... (u can imagine how frequent i view his profile). and there is this one post he shared, which is about secret recipe cakes, i liked it also, and reshared it on my timeline... at the moment, i guess he is still offline... and just now, i decided to view his profile once again, to confirm that whether he came here or not. but guess what, i saw he likes the photo and the post i liked few hours ago.. hahahahahahaha.. i know this is something that is quite ridiculous. but... but... for me this it totally unusual. why? because he rarely likes his own photo, his own post and so. how i know? i'm a FBI ok. lol. and i had this ridiculous thought in my mind, why u likes ur own post? and only likes the post that i liked.. and why is it only after i liked it u like ur posts?
but then i quickly wake up, and told myself that calm down fiffy, u can't assume anything, don't make assumption, don't make assumption... don't... please don't lol.. and now i can't even calm down. i already did that assumption, and even think he is actually want me to start all the conversation. because to think about it back, he started to ignore me is when i told him someone at my work place (intern place) resemble him... and i said i feel so happy when that guy talk to me, but why am i so afraid to talk to u.
idk guys, there is a lot of thing between us that is still pending. whenever i asked him, he will never answer it. except something that is less sensitive... like about his ex-crush, his ex-girlfriends. his friends. his activity like selling t-shirt, editing pictures and so. back then i was thinking he still guarding himself, he is not sincere to be my friend, but now i seems can understand that, because he is ego... he will never show his weak side to a girl. i think, moreover he is the eldest in his siblings... so... it seems acceptable. hypothesis accepted? lol. no... i don't have the courage to talk to him... whenever he reply, i can feel that he really hates me. idk why. i don't have the confident. let me die....
i know that i am so childish. sorry for my stupid act. it seems like this is my first time having a crush on someone, though my age is 22 y.o now. kids younger than me can act more calm compare to me. enough with that, just kill me..
i'm ok with his name keep appearing on my facebook sidebar, like on the chat list, suggestion pages for me to like and so... even on my own profile, each time i view my own profile, his name will be in the featured friends of mine, leading me to open his profile. i view his profile everyday though... haha.. i always view, but rarely likes, and no comments drop. as long as i know he is doing well i'm ok... he cooks for his housemate ok, and i super like it. guys can cook is super hot!
hahaha... ok..i said that i rarely like his activity right? and there is one time, i view his page again, the picture he takes so pretty, and he make it as his cover photo. i liked it, after several time viewing his profile... (u can imagine how frequent i view his profile). and there is this one post he shared, which is about secret recipe cakes, i liked it also, and reshared it on my timeline... at the moment, i guess he is still offline... and just now, i decided to view his profile once again, to confirm that whether he came here or not. but guess what, i saw he likes the photo and the post i liked few hours ago.. hahahahahahaha.. i know this is something that is quite ridiculous. but... but... for me this it totally unusual. why? because he rarely likes his own photo, his own post and so. how i know? i'm a FBI ok. lol. and i had this ridiculous thought in my mind, why u likes ur own post? and only likes the post that i liked.. and why is it only after i liked it u like ur posts?
but then i quickly wake up, and told myself that calm down fiffy, u can't assume anything, don't make assumption, don't make assumption... don't... please don't lol.. and now i can't even calm down. i already did that assumption, and even think he is actually want me to start all the conversation. because to think about it back, he started to ignore me is when i told him someone at my work place (intern place) resemble him... and i said i feel so happy when that guy talk to me, but why am i so afraid to talk to u.
idk guys, there is a lot of thing between us that is still pending. whenever i asked him, he will never answer it. except something that is less sensitive... like about his ex-crush, his ex-girlfriends. his friends. his activity like selling t-shirt, editing pictures and so. back then i was thinking he still guarding himself, he is not sincere to be my friend, but now i seems can understand that, because he is ego... he will never show his weak side to a girl. i think, moreover he is the eldest in his siblings... so... it seems acceptable. hypothesis accepted? lol. no... i don't have the courage to talk to him... whenever he reply, i can feel that he really hates me. idk why. i don't have the confident. let me die....
i know that i am so childish. sorry for my stupid act. it seems like this is my first time having a crush on someone, though my age is 22 y.o now. kids younger than me can act more calm compare to me. enough with that, just kill me..
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but i'm going to bank it on his ego as well. maybe the topic is touchy for him?
i have never had a meaningful crush on anyone, so i like reading your posts because it makes me squeal with joy like a little fangirl lol
But he made all his social network private.
He knew that I liked him but he totally ignore me like I was invisible. So, I know how you feel. At least you get to talk to him. Which is a great step.
I didn't even get the chance to talk to him, so I know that I will never be his friend.
Cheer up, I'm sure he has a reason why he's acting that way.