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Easier or better?

today, i feel so down, so tension and stressed out till i cried once i leave the outlet. i'm hating this place. i just hate it, i can't imagine if i need to stay longer at secret recipe. i just hate the staffs. not all, but some of them. i'm not the type of person to easily forget what people talk about me, especially bad talks. they should at least tell me nicely about what is wrong with my works and my attitude. idk, the others are good and ok with me, but why u guys not? i'm not sure myself. is it my problem or is that ur problem. even there are some part that i made things looks bad, they still can say it nicely. and now i start to questioned why u can't talk nicely to me? do u have problem with me? u hate me? i try my best not to be a cry baby, but i truly confess that i am not the type of person that can stand people talk bad about me. talk bad about me is something that already make me feel uneasy, plus it is in other language which i can't understand, but it is obvious that u two are talking about me, that is way too much for me. i even thinking of escaping duties. and now i'm starting to be an anti to ur race. i know this wasn't a big deal, but to me it is. i can bear with other things like bully or what so ever, because i like it when people told me to do things. but what i don't like is, when u talk bad about me without telling me what is wrong, and also, blaming on things that i didn't do. but that is still bearable. it is just d bad talks actually.

"never ask things to be easier, ask urself to better." i always try my best to perform better from day to day. i always goes on life based on this quotes. but in this case, i feel it was so hard, that i want give up. i wish things to be easier. i wish that i will never meet the 2 of them again. i'm hating this place... no matter how much i try my best to do better, to make them satisfied, there are some people that still disliking me, that still doesn't know how to talk nicely.

ps: i'm not a person that need harsh words to understand what u want to complain though.

Comments

Claudia said…
I hate it when people do that. They need to be mature and talk about their problems with you, instead of talking behind your back. Maybe you should confront them about this? But only if it bothers you, but if you think you can hold it in, I would just ignore them.

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