I seriously hoping that i can remove all the pictures of him in my head. it is seriously tiring. it seems like, u r on one side love. i claim that we are couple. hoho~ for more than 3 years. i understand he is busy. but... still... is it hard to text me, asking how am i? u dont even remember me before u sleep? while u r resting? are u surrounded by thousands of works? or problems? is it related to ur study? in this early semester? really? busy studying in ur early semester.
and u mad at me when i asked u is it true that u r not avoiding me? i understand that u can't see, i understand ur situation. i even tried to relieve all the worries raised from ur ignorance. i tried to let forget it. i act like i don't care whenever u ask me if i am ok, i tried to cheer myself up.. however, it is still me the one who makan hati with ur ignorance. u will not understand, about how i feel. ever! even if i explain it to u. even u said that u understood... u know that is ur fault. but... u do it again and again, thank you. u told me that u will do... but... zero. again.. thank you...
dont fcking blame me when i'm not talking to u. dont mad at me when i not replying ur text... because this is what u've taught me... dont fcking blame for who am i now. i am seriously sick of people.. they promise something that they can never do.... dont mad at me if i change... dont mad at me if i manage to forget u one day... thank you... once again... how i wish i could ignore u like how u ignore me... it is amazing that when u said u love someone and u don't ever think of her for the whole day of urs.
if u pray for me... then i am glad and grateful. but still... i am not approving about what u did to me. i'm still in love with u. but... it is possible for me to not have it in the future.. i do think of u everyday, most of the time... thinking how i should take care of u. thinking how should i train myself to be the tough for u. i don't know what u have in ur mind... responsibility maybe. but... again... i still do not approve ur act.
and u mad at me when i asked u is it true that u r not avoiding me? i understand that u can't see, i understand ur situation. i even tried to relieve all the worries raised from ur ignorance. i tried to let forget it. i act like i don't care whenever u ask me if i am ok, i tried to cheer myself up.. however, it is still me the one who makan hati with ur ignorance. u will not understand, about how i feel. ever! even if i explain it to u. even u said that u understood... u know that is ur fault. but... u do it again and again, thank you. u told me that u will do... but... zero. again.. thank you...
dont fcking blame me when i'm not talking to u. dont mad at me when i not replying ur text... because this is what u've taught me... dont fcking blame for who am i now. i am seriously sick of people.. they promise something that they can never do.... dont mad at me if i change... dont mad at me if i manage to forget u one day... thank you... once again... how i wish i could ignore u like how u ignore me... it is amazing that when u said u love someone and u don't ever think of her for the whole day of urs.
if u pray for me... then i am glad and grateful. but still... i am not approving about what u did to me. i'm still in love with u. but... it is possible for me to not have it in the future.. i do think of u everyday, most of the time... thinking how i should take care of u. thinking how should i train myself to be the tough for u. i don't know what u have in ur mind... responsibility maybe. but... again... i still do not approve ur act.
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