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Cold Evening!

Remember when i thought i COULD NOT forget Y? Remember when u feel the heart ache when he shows zero interest? Remember all the silly dreams? lmao. ok STAPH. -___-'

Hahahaha... Now, when someone asked me how is Mr Y? I was like... Hmmm who Mr Y? Y who? LOL. Fifi so lame. You thought your feeling could last longer. But NO.

Who knows that one month in Sushi King KLCC could change everything. Now, I'm totally a different person. A person who loves sincerely without wanting him to stay here. Errr... i lied. I wanted him to stay here but... yeah things a bit difficult. Love is not difficult, but human are. Put that aside. I am completely happy to be with him.

He is mean. mean. mean... mean... and mean... then silly. and sweet. and then bitter. :P but he care about me a lot. he understand me a lot. he knows what i want without me telling him. We both together for about hmm 5 months? yeah sure u guys will say only 5 months ofcourse everything is nice and sweet. But u couldn't even imagine the night we both fighting just because i refuse to understand the whole-complicated-things-of-why-we-cannot-be-together running in his family and my family mind. :P

Yesterday was his birthday. :) he love the watch i gave him. It's a couple watch. I was wearing the watch earlier. I thought he never notice the watch. But he said... u think i dont know this is a couple watch. lol. =__=' I thought he never notice anything about me. He even notice when i had a very thin lipstick on my lips. He wouldn't say it in front of my friend, instead he will text me asking who am i trying to impress. He never say he jealous of his friend who happen to work in the same outlet with me, and likes me. But it's ok. He is such a lil shit, but i love how silly i can be when i'm with him. How sneaky he is when he want to hold my hand in public. :P

Damn i sounds crazy. i need to stop.

He keep calling me fat in his language. don't worry he didn't mean that word tho, cos he keep feeding me with food. -__-' silly. but manage to lose some weight. about 12 kilos, WORK. work... uhuuu... I'm slimming down, but he gaining weight. lol. i miss how i can be 100% transparent on this blog. but not now anymore. cos... really this one mistake i made don't deserve the sorry especially from my family. but don't think too negative, it's nothing. i just don't want others to judge me. like i'm the only one commit the sin.

How am i going to manage my heart ache when he go back to his place... I wanted to follow him, but mom... dad... T___T

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